It all begin with a trip to the bathroom at 3:35am on August 21, 2018. I was 39 weeks pregnant and had been walking nonstop for the past days. My fear was to be induced and have a planned date for when my DAUGHTER would arrive. I felt anxiety going over my due date, therefore, I did everything in my power to have her come in time (She came just two days before her due date)!
To Elise:
I crawled back into bed and sat next to your dad in our dark room. I gave him a little shake and said with a big nervous SMILE, “I think we will be having our baby very soon.” Your dad as you know by now (loves to sleep) looked at me with a smile over his shoulder and said, “Okay babe.” He was so calmed and just went back to sleeping while holding us both. I started timing our contractions and they were 13 minutes apart and not painful. So the three of us went back to bed. I should rephrase that, me and your dad went back to sleep. While, you my beautiful girl stayed up in mamá’s BELLY saying your goodbyes and packing up in there getting ready to meet your family.
Later that morning, I woke up with more painful contractions but I stayed active around the house to keep my mind occupied. Elise, we learned in childbirth class to wait to go to the hospital until our contractions were 3-5 minutes apart or else they might just send us back home. For the rest of the day, mamá was having contractions seven minutes apart. Until late that night (11pm), things got painful but not painful enough for wanting to make a trip to the hospital. I was really afraid to get to the hospital and the doctors sending us home. But your dad could not handle seeing how intense things were getting in the house that he packed all our bags and got us in the car with your abuelita.
The nurse checked to see if you were getting closer to being here. She looked at mamá confused and probably thinking that we should have stayed at home. Maybe because mamá was talking to the nurse through a contraction. The nurse looked up at us surprised and said you are 7cm dilated!!! Oh Elise, this was music to our ears. We thought you would be here in a matter of hours.
But my little stinkita (stinker), you had your own plans on how you wanted to come to this world and you decided to take your time in there. Mamá went from 7cm to 8cm by 4am. Then the midwife kept checking mama and we stayed at 8cm - 9cm with no epidural from 4am to 8:15am. Until, the midwife took us to the bathroom and said, “Your body is working so hard and she might not be here very soon.” Therefore, I decided to get medications to help relax my body and encourage you to come sooner. (We FOUGHT so so so so hard honey! I will leave all the painful details aside to not scare any soon to be mamas) The epidural was all that we needed because an hour after, I was 10cm and ready to have you in my arms.
After three and half long hours of pushing, and thinking to myself, “There’s just no way she is coming out like this. These people need to do something else to get her out in another way because I can’t anymore, I CAN’T.” And just when that thought crossed my mind you came out crying so loud my BEAUTIFUL ANGEL. The midwife slid you under mama’s belly because I gave birth to you in all fours. You cried and I cried while locking eyes on each other. Your dad reached over to kiss my forehead while looking down at you. You were born on a beautiful warm summer day (August 22, 2018 at 2:27pm). The sun was extra bright that day just for you sweetheart!!
Your abuelita turned around immediately to the virgensita (virgin Mary) picture that we brought with us to the hospital and said a big, GRACIAS MADRE HERMOSA (Thank you beautiful mother). Your abuelita prayed all night and day during labor for the both of us. We labored for a total of 35 hours Elise!
Silent tears came dwelling over my face while I thought to myself, “One day, you Elise will go through this process of giving birth to your own children if you decide to have a family of your own.” My stomach turned thinking about you ever being in this type of pain or any sort of pain. I felt the need to put an INVISIBLE SHIELD over you from any harm. Although, it was a very intense painful labor, I would do it over and over again for you my angel. You are the most beautiful and pure thing that has ever happened to me. I love you oh so SO MUCH. My heart is no longer inside of me, it beats outside next to you.
All I can say is that there is not a day that I do not thank diosito (God) for bringing you into our lives. I never knew that this type of LOVE existed until I became your mamá.
Silent tears came dwelling over my face while I thought to myself, “One day, you Elise will go through this process of giving birth to your own children if you decide to have a family of your own.” My stomach turned thinking about you ever being in this type of pain or any sort of pain. I felt the need to put an INVISIBLE SHIELD over you from any harm. Although, it was a very intense painful labor, I would do it over and over again for you my angel. You are the most beautiful and pure thing that has ever happened to me. I love you oh so SO MUCH. My heart is no longer inside of me, it beats outside next to you.
All I can say is that there is not a day that I do not thank diosito (God) for bringing you into our lives. I never knew that this type of LOVE existed until I became your mamá.
Te amo mi Elita!
Mamá
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